fuel the light

___________________________________________________________________________________________________ revision process: while writing, I was listening to Menuet in G Minor (trans. W. Kempff). ___________________________________________________________________________________________________ I originally wrote, "I am full of worry, of the sun disintegrating before my eyes" which was to say that I am anxious about things that are unlikely to happen. As it would be unlikely for me to see the sun explode because if it did, we'd all probably just die. There wouldn't be much to witness. Though I don't actually know, because it hasn't happened yet. I decided to change it to, "my life flashing before my eyes", because it's a common phrase and it's easier for the reader to process. I decided to keep the, "So I'll hold my hands up high, I will piece it back together as it once was a star" sentence- despite it referencing the sun because it can symbolize that my life was once "perfect" and easier in general. Could also be slight reference to the star stickers we'd receive in elementary school to aknowledge our achievements; which we now, no longer receive. Like we used to get that validation, now that we don't, there's not much motivating us. I kept the "sun may be fading" line to make the poem a little optimistic as I didn't mean to write a "depressing" poem. I'd like to think of it as being realistic. The following sentences were to shift from being negative. ___________________________________________________________________________________________________ "Though the sun may be fading, it is heating my hair, And yet, my feet are still planted, and I am still there. ", Essentially, I'm saying that though life may not be what it was, I'm grateful to be alive and well. ___________________________________________________________________________________________________ "Anchoring my feet is the worry of defeat But I know I must stumble and fall to progress into the unknown, Though it rings with uncertainty, confidence shall resound", I'll break this down again; the only thing holding me from moving forward is fear that I am not good enough and this idea that what I'm doing can only result in "failure". I then aknowledge that in order to progress, there will be setbacks. Success is not a linear process and though it may seem like it was for another individual or like it "should be", in no way does it mean that it is. ______________________________________________________________________________________________ Then the part where I say, "Though it rings with uncertainty", means that even though progress is a trial and error progress in means of; seeing what works for you and what doesn't- you should persevere and see how it plays out, as it could be "good". Or in other words, "You have potential, so you might as well try. What's the worst that could happen? You fail. So what?". ___________________________________________________________________________________________________ "Confidence shall resound", EVERYONE has confidence. It's just a matter of being confident (which is an oversimplification)- but that's essentially what I'm trying to express. The confidence will "resurface"- almost like, you will rise to the occasion when needed.